Your heart, in mine

December 20, 2004

miss my fwens...

im at home,juz woke up...dunno wat to do...mati kering nih...

mum went to Mustafa Ctr juz now with her fwen,she won't let me come along...duh...den i juz went home alone and i bought LIME magazine,Taufik is on the cover...Met HIM juz now,with his fwens,he didnt eat any breakfast,probably he's tired,i thought of having breakfast with him,but never mind arh...at least he did gave me his soya bean which he cant finished (sayang dier)...hahaha...

heard Antu's conversation yesterday...i cant be bothered with her but sumtimes it can be very annoying and irritating...she said she wants to stop werking in the next two years and help my dad at his shop...she wants to takeover my dad's...she said she wants my dad to retire,c'mon lah,my dad is already retired,he juz have to cook only wat,den he's free all day long,while my mum only once in a while at the shop...i know wat she's thinking,i know her motives...if she wants to takeover my dad's,she has to go through me first...

i had a nightmare last night,i was knocked down by a car,it was hit and run,i was given 48hrs only to live,its hard to believe but at last i wrote letter to my parent,all my fwens,my bro and HIM to say my last goodbye...i died wen i juz finished writting the letter to HIM,i was so afraid...i cried wen i woke up...i hope i wont happen dat way...

Mapek called me yesterday,he said his uncle want to meet me and him,to settle our problem but i told him if he wants to meet me den i'll bring my parent along den he said he wants to meet me alone den i said NO to him,he wants me back but i guessed its not possible,i wont come back to him,it'll juz hurt me more,above all i realized he didnt love me for wat i am,but he love me for wat i have...furthermore my feelings for him is totally gone...IF i do wants him back,i doubt my parent will approve coz they feels dat he didnt give any respect to them,he didnt visit my mum wen she was hospitalized,i did asked him to visit my mum but he gave dozen of excuses,even on hari raya he didnt meet my parent,while his mum treat me like i'm a walking ATM machine,i have to werk too to earn money k...now i hope dat his parent will meet my parent to settle our problem coz i dun want anything to do with him anymore...

i miss all my fwens...hope to meet them soon...

Sabariyah;
6:20 PM

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